and how tired I was from the past couple of weeks,
From the past couple of years.
Well, it hit me all at once,
On a balcony overlooking nothing,
With snow falling all around,
And you hadn't done anything wrong,
And know, really, really, it's me not you.
And can you live with what you know about yourself,
When you're all alone, behind closed doors?
The things we never said, but we always knew were right there.
It's got me on my knees in a bathroom,
Praying to a God that I don't even believe in,
"Well, dear Jesus, are you listening?
If this is the one chance that really matters,
Well, don't let me fuck this up.
If you'd told me about all this when I was fifteen,
I never would have believed it."
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
I'll wear those shoes and you will wear that dress.
Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me
Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map
Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me
Kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me
So kiss me
So kiss me
So kiss me
Afraid that once you did you'd really know how it felt
to be a sucker on a string that you dragged around wherever you'd go.
Tempted to tape up the pages I'd ripped.
And although I recognize that we're attached at the lips,
you're the one in charge and that the captain's gotta sink with the ship.
I never had anybody.
But being alone wasn't half as bad as being obsessed
with a breath taker, a smile faker.
These years alone have eaten me alive.
not feeling anything.
nothing at all.
David Lee
TJ
Andy
Jason
Matt
Andrew
Joe
Dave
Kevin
James
Jay
All the guys i've even kissed + more. but we wont go there.
All of them, a waste of my fucking time.
apparently.
i need to focus on me.
what i want, what i need,
is probably to move!
this was never my home,
its just where i grew up.
im so confused, and im doing it to myself.
i cant believe it, i finally lost it.
I met someone the other day.
Someone I like way.... way too much.
Someone who is probably my perfect match.
Someone that I cant resist, even though i know......
That this someone is moving to North Carolina in 2 weeks.
and i cant stop him.
and i cant stop thinking that this is it, this is where it ends.
Im crazy, in so many ways.
ive fallen harder and faster than ever EVER before.
dont be happy for me.
this is gonna be over before it even really begins.
"There's something strange going on in my head
That says if I were to get in a car right now
North Carolina is where I would end
And to your doorstep I would be bound.
To whisper the words that I've always wanted to say"
- Mood:
numb
cause i got it,
what i wanted right now!
this time for good
i asked for alittle more to buy some clothes for when i go on vacation, and i got $100 more.
I asked for my birthday that he pay my $120 car insurance. Got it.
dang man, if only i knew this whole (almost) 19 years that my dad was such a pushover with money, i would have actually asked for some.
and it straight up pisses me off.
why is this the only thing i ever find annoying, besides jesse vieten, hah!
You don't take a photograph, you make it. -Ansel Adams
eeww
ps.maybe if stoped drinking soo much my tounge could retract itself back in my mouth
monacos drunk
jordans drunk
brandons drunk
vickis drunk
jesses drunk
joes drunk
and ringo is really really drunk
hah
good night
when your a server and you bank is short, it doesnt mean you stole it, it means you made a mistake and you pay for it, no problem. But because my boss hates me he called me a theif and fired me. He said if i didnt go in the dumpster and find the ticket in one of the million trash bags out there, then he can only conclude im a theif.WTF! i told him theres no way im doing tat and that was it.
10 DOLLARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
seriously, my life is fucked.
whos hiring?
i cant get by on the money i make from hot topic
1"New Wave"
2"Up the Cuts"
3"Thrash Unreal"
4"White People for Peace"
5"Stop"
6"Borne on the FM Waves" (featuring Tegan Quin)
7"Piss and Vinegar"
8"Americans Abroad"
9"Animal"
10"Ocean"
IM EXCITED FOR THIS CD. im also excited that im going to go see them friday, i mean, did i really have anything better to do on a friday night, hell no
i am soo getting wasted tonight
dumbass.
Oh well, he's making me look like im not the bad kid in the family anymore.
but he's still not as bad as our oldest brother, we could never beat that.
in other news: i gave my mom $230 to pay my car payment with, and she used it to bail my older brother out of jail. and then told me afterwards that she didnt pay my car payment with it. my shits gonna get repoed.
NOT COOL!
seriously, take me for all im worth.
In GOOD news: im going to lake mary pub tonight for the show, yay.
and lyrics mom just gave me a $25 gift card to target for graduation. sweet, im going to buy that 70s show season 5.
I get payed at hot topic today, i dont feel like going and getting my check.
Nap time, i just got home from graduation practice, boring.
I GRADUATE SUNDAY, BETTER COME TO THE KEG PARTY AFTERWARDS!
http://www.camerapedia.org/wiki/Polaroi
i gotta get one
Vicki and brandon are going to the show with me friday, that means i have one more seat.
Today was my last day of High school. Thats soo fuckin awesome.
I just gave up $100 to bail my brother that i fuckin hate out of jail, because i cant say no to my mom.
And then i gave $80 to my sister because she a selfish bitch who just had to have breast inplants and now is broke as fuck.
And on top of that my mom already owes me $50.
Seriously, am i made out of fuckin money to you guys.
I have no money now, thanks alot guys.
VENT!
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